Be prepared…this post is wordy!
To be completely honest, I struggled immensely with this detox and I struggled even more writing this post. I had no idea that I would have such an emotional reaction, which frightened me.
The first few days were fine, great even. And then Monday came and it went downhill from there. Monday was the worst, physically. I was dizzy, felt like I was going to pass out, on the verge of puking…all and all not good. Later in the week I became completely just overwhelmed with my emotions. I won’t go into grave details, but believe me it was scary.
I took this a lot worse than Ryan did. Ryan was doing fine on the detox, give or take a few minor inconvieneces. I, on the other hand, was completely miserable. I was an emotional wreck. I had absolutely zero energy. I ate and ate and nothing fulfilled me. I went to bed crying several times. I was terrible to deal with (just ask Ryan).
Part of me wanted to give up, part of me wanted to stick with it. There are hundreds of articles stating this is completely normal and there are a hundred more that say detoxing is not necessary by any means.
So what do I do? Do I hope this will get better and keep trucking on like planned and finish out the last week or do I give up? It’s really hard for me to admit defeat with this. I’m the health coach…I’m supposed to be the one thriving from this detox and yet here I am…failing.
I know it’s not necessarily failing, but that’s what it feels like to me. Just something else I can’t do. Something else I can’t finish because I’m too weak. Because I’m not strong enough.
After having a long conversation with Ryan, I decided I could not handle feeling like this for another week. I think if I would have known how emotional this detox would have been, I would have maybe made it through. Being incredibly raw and emotional was not expected so it really through off my mentality.
Am I disappointed? Not really. Ryan and I learned so much about ourselves and about each other from this that we may have never talked about if it weren’t for this detox.
Will I ever try this again? Maybe. Maybe not. I think I would need a lot of time to pass before I would try this again. Perhaps in the future I will do better so I can better prepare for the detox mentally, but who knows.
A few things I did take away:
1. Bread (and bread products) make me extremely bloated. Two days without any bread products and my stomach stayed the same size throughout the entire day. I will be much more aware of how much bread products I eat but will not cut them out entirely.
2. I didn’t really miss meat all that much.
3. I really missed cheese. Like, really.
4. I started waking up more refreshed every morning which was welcomed.
5. One person’s healthy diet may be another person’s poison. Ryan felt fantastic the entire time (for the most part) while I, obviously, struggled. It’s amazing how one way of eating can be perfect for one person and be almost harmful to another. Just another reason why I believe in bio-individuality.
So there are my thoughts. I’d love to hear about other’s experiences with detoxing or even if you would never detox. All thoughts are welcome!